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Monday, February 28, 2011

10 things I am greatful for today...

1. I am thankful that the new girl I got in my class is polite and sweet.

2. I am thankful that I got to talk to my fiance for a while before he had to go into work tonight.

3. I am thankful that God stopped the thunderstorms last night and I was able to get a few hours of sleep.

4. I am thankful that the thunderstorms didn't turn into tornados.

5. I am thankful that even though I didn't want to, God helped me to eat a healthy dinner, rather than binge.

6. I am thankful for the sweet text my fiance sent me that said, "I really love u!"

7. I am thankful that this is a 3 day week with the students and 2 inservice days, and 2 dress down days!

8. I am thankful for a wonderful mother-in-law to be. She shows me that she loves me often.

9. I am thankful that tonight is the last night of "night float" for my finace and tomorrow he'll be back to working days.

10. I am thankful for the presence of God I felt today! I'm off to spend time with Him now!

Sunday, February 27, 2011

What am I thankful for today?

Today I am thankful for so many are 10.

1. I am thankful for having my fiance in my life. He makes me laugh, feel, and love like I NEVER have before and I LOVE that I get choked up when expressing my feelings for him, because they are so deep. (We were at Engagement Encounter all weekend and I cried multiple times out of pure love and joy!!! It was the greatest feelings I have ever felt!)

2. I am thankful for knowing God! I am thankful that God revealed himself to me so clearly about 9 years ago and has remained so clear since.

3. I am thankful God is so loving and amazing. I want to tap into that love more. Today I realized that EVERY moment of EVERY day, God's love for me is overflowing and I rarely take time to experience it. It's time!

4. I am thankful that God reveals areas in my life that He needs and wants to heal. Today, He revealed my insecurity and how that affects my relationships and other areas of my life, the life He has blessed me with. I am offering that up to God to heal and asking that He help me find my security in Him!

5. That brings me to this... I am so thankful that God offers us security! He is all knowing, all powerful, and so loving and merciful! God will protect us, love us, care for us and take care of us. He will mend our hurts, celebrate in our joys, and provide for all of our needs- emotional needs included!

6. I am thankful for summer. With all this cold weather and snow, I am remembering how much I love and appreciate summer, warm weather, and sunshine!

7. I am thankful for a knowledge of nutrition and health. I thank God for blessing me with this knowledge and I ask that He help me use the knowledge to take care of the body that He has given to me, to be His vessel!

8. I am thankful for people who are followers of God. They offer such insight and support as we walk together through life striving to live for God!

9. I am thankful for the time that my fiance and I have together, doing daily readings, praying, and doing daily devotions. I am so thankful that we both love God so much!

10. I am thankful for the Engagement Encounter weekend my fiance and I had together. Some parts were tough and I noticed fear crept in...fear of failure, fear of not being good enough, fear of getting hurt. But, I am thankful that my fiance and I had that time to share our deepest thoughts and feelings with each other. I am thankful that we learned more about each other. I am thankful that we were given guidance and resources to help us build a strong marriage and most of all, I am thankful that God will be the foundation of our marriage and that God's plan for marriage is so beautiful and lifegiving!!!

Monday, February 21, 2011

Do I live through others?

As I went to make a post, I thought...nah! I don't need to write, I read other people's blogs...and a heck of a lot of them at that. BUT...then I thought....Wait a minute. I avoid my own thoughts/feelings and instead read lots of other people's blogs. Ouch! Did God just give me a love tap with a 2 X 4? I really do this? Yes. I do. I spend countless hours each day reading other people's blogs. I do it because I do enjoy reading them. But, it also takes up a lot of time that I could be thinking and feeling my own thoughts and feelings. Likewise, I think I live vicariously through other people's blogs. I don't want to sound like a weirdo stalker, but I follow blogs pretty closely (guess I have a lot of thoughts/feelings to avoid). I "live through them" going on vacations, getting married, having babies, training for and running marathons, eating things I don't let myself eat (unless it's during a planned binge), etc.

I am actually glad that I just became aware of this. Because I have a GREAT life of my own and I haven't been fully living it. Of course, like everyone else, there are parts of life that just plain stink-o-rino (like fiance working 12 hour nights this month and being super duper tired from lack of sleep...poor guy!), but overall, I have soooo many wonderful things in my life. I want to start living. I want to start experiencing life. Not "the world" per say, but real, true, life that God gave me and wants me to live EVERY SINGLE DAY!!!

So, for the next 30 days, I am going to have the kick off to "Live your life challenge". I am also going to start a 30 day, "I am thankful for life" challenge. Each day, I will focus on being in the present moment and living my life THAT DAY (not the past and not too much in the future...with the obvious wedding prep and excitement of course :)) and I will end each day with a list of 10 things I am greatful for that day.

Today, I am greatful for...
1. God and the AMAZING life he offers each and everyone of us.
2. Fiance ~ He's the funniest, sweetest, most caring, hardworking person I have ever met and he loves and cares for me so much.
3. Job interview tomorrow ~ prayers that it goes well and I am able to show them a glimpse of God (fyi that's another goal to show people God, because He is AMAZING!)
4. Water. It tastes so good when I'm super thirsty and makes me feel refreshed.
5. My sister ~ she's always stuck by me and understands me the most, out of all my family members.
6. Desire to stop binge eating.
7. God's promise that no temptation is too great to overtake us, who belong to Him, and make us give into it.
8. My Aunt Cheryl ~ I need to reconnect with her, but she's like a twin of me and I can tell her anything.
9. Fiance's family ~ They have welcomed me into their family and treat me with great love!
10. Cody and Ashley ~ They are the cutest, sweetest kids and always make me smile.